June 3, 2020
I’m lying here with absolutely everything on my mind, hearing voices in my head, but I just got back from church and the stack of scripture to my right has me comforted. I take comfort in the smell of rain, the birds, and some good ole’ folk music, 26 by caamp to be exact.
I was recently diagnosed with psychosis and Schizoaffective disorder, it’s harder than ever to be alone and poor during a coronavirus that seems to be shutting the world off and making us eat each other apart. We can find solace in the family. For anyone feeling down with all this extra time try and turn to something positive don’t be led to temptation, but do something for someone else even if it feels hopeless because as the quote outside my mom’s kitchen, we rise by lifting each other. We can get through these times by dreaming over brighter days that lay ahead.
It’s always darkest before the dawn as a an old roommate of mine told me, of all places in a psychiatric institute, but funny enough I was with some of the kindest souls.
My mind’s off-track now. I’m going to go work on some art, have a blessed day.
Oh, music. A fun game that I was playing in my own head was dissecting a song and relating it to your own life if you can’t relate question is this who I am? If you can relate, why? it helps with visualization, and if you’re lucky it may bring you a new idea to build from. Have fun, much love, talk soon.